Introduction:
Just before this blog actually gets started, I would like to just say, that I am already on my 5th day of doing this and I have only just had the idea to write it in a blog format on Kink Talk (I also posted this to GetDare yesterday but figured the people of Kink Talk might also be interested), so don't think I'm cheating because all of these posts were made today!
Day 1:
Hello! This will be my diary for the 12 days that document my feelings while having no orgasms. I do not own a chastity device so I am using nothing but pure willpower to get me through this, it will hopefully be fun or at least interesting for some people to read and might give some people some information on what to expect if doing orgasm denial for the first time.
First though some information about me. My name is Rob, I live in England and I am currently at university. My sexual fantasies include pretty much any type of female domination, feet, ass worship, pussy worship, forced bi, anal (although I am very new to anal), being publicly exposed (online online and in very concealed areas such as a forest), cum eating (although I have only done this once and I very often lack the willpower to actually swallow it), pain (although nothing permanent and nothing that causes blood, just simple CBT and nipple clamps), pee, chastity devices and of course orgasm control (there may well be others I have forgotten, but these are the main ones).
I am quite new to orgasm denial, I have only managed to go about 5 or 6 days in the past, but now I feel I am ready to take on my 12 day challenge. If I fail (and I will be very honest if I do fail) I will buy a chastity device and when I go home I will leave the keys behind (I go home once every month) so when I come back to my university accommodation, I will have absolutely zero access to my penis for an entire month).
If you have any questions or any ways you think I could enhance this or any future trials I could put myself through, please leave a comment and I will reply as soon as I see it.
Day 2:
It's being difficult tonight, I normally masturbate once everyday or so, so it is going to be hard to get through these 12 days. I was quite bored so I decided to masturbate but only get to the edge and then let go and let it fade away. I had the idea of edging twice as much everyday (so on the third day I would edge 6 times before going to bed) but I thought that would get too hard. I looked at some of the femdom porn I have which inspired me to keep going and live the way that I want to live in my fantasies.
Day 3:
I am going to bed really late tonight, so I am not as frustrated as I was yesterday because I am to tired to think about anything. Perhaps this method of avoiding the urge to cum will be useful.
Day 4:
It seems as soon as I take my clothes off to go to bed, I get increasingly horny, as soon as I took my clothes off tonight I got a huge erection just thinking about how desperate I am going to be to cum over the next 8 days. I sat down to pee (its hard to pee while standing with an erection, it just goes everywhere) and had to press my penis down to actually get the pee into the bowl. A bit leaked out from between the crack between the toilet seat and the actual bowl and I wanted some kind of sexual release so much that I got down on my knees and licked the pee off of the floor. I have also decided to sleep naked which is something I only seem to do during these orgasm denial sessions (as I said in day 1 I have done orgasm denial challenges before but only for about 5 or 6 days), I don't know why this is. Perhaps its because I want to live in a household dominated by a woman who forces me to be naked 24/7 and this is just my way of living the fantasy out, behind closed doors.
I also thought about sleeping on the floor, with no covers or pillows, completely naked. The thought of this turns me on, but maybe later I will do that. Another thought has been coming across my mind in the morning, which is to simply get out of the shower, dry myself and then open my bedroom curtains while still naked and just see if anyone looks. But I'm not sure I have the courage to do this. There are a lot of students who might see me, because my accommodation's window faces other accommodation windows. Maybe before the 12 days are over, I will be getting my release from doing this sort of thing... There is a strong possibility no one would see me anyway. Maybe I could start by just wearing underwear. In fact what I could do is sit in my underwear at night with my curtains open while I do my work. That way people can openly see me semi naked and it might get me used to the feeling of being exposed.
Anyway, I need to get to bed, so I will say goodnight for today and talk to you
all tomorrow.
Day 5:
I have now brought a chastity device, not because I have failed to go 12 days without cumming, but purely because I want one. Just thinking about being locked up makes me very, very aroused. It will be the first real sex toy I have ever brought, so I suppose its quite a big thing for me.
I am not as horny as I was yesterday for some reason. My balls are getting slightly fatter each day (unless its my imagination making me see and feel this), I wonder how big they will be at the 12th day? I am yet to try my public underwear idea that I had yesterday but maybe in the morning I will do it, It's my day off tomorrow so its not like I need to rush off anywhere in the morning. I have no excuse not to do it.
I am catching myself thinking sexually a lot more during the day, towards a certain classmate and also a certain a flatmate. She had bare feet throughout the night and I kept taking glances at them wishing to be beneath them. I keep having a fantasy where I am forced into getting naked and licking her feet and she records the whole thing secretly and blackmails me with the footage, I then go on to do all of her homework and essays and for everything I get wrong she punishes me and for everything I get right she gives me a treat, but because a treat to me would be giving her a foot massage (or being allowed to worship her pussy, etc) it is really a treat for her either way.
Another thing I have noticed is CBT hurts a lot more when you have been denied a few days, I'm not sure why this is, but by day 12 I'm sure a simple flick will hurt like hell. I really can't wait for my chastity device, it's going to be fun!
Just before this blog actually gets started, I would like to just say, that I am already on my 5th day of doing this and I have only just had the idea to write it in a blog format on Kink Talk (I also posted this to GetDare yesterday but figured the people of Kink Talk might also be interested), so don't think I'm cheating because all of these posts were made today!
Day 1:
Hello! This will be my diary for the 12 days that document my feelings while having no orgasms. I do not own a chastity device so I am using nothing but pure willpower to get me through this, it will hopefully be fun or at least interesting for some people to read and might give some people some information on what to expect if doing orgasm denial for the first time.
First though some information about me. My name is Rob, I live in England and I am currently at university. My sexual fantasies include pretty much any type of female domination, feet, ass worship, pussy worship, forced bi, anal (although I am very new to anal), being publicly exposed (online online and in very concealed areas such as a forest), cum eating (although I have only done this once and I very often lack the willpower to actually swallow it), pain (although nothing permanent and nothing that causes blood, just simple CBT and nipple clamps), pee, chastity devices and of course orgasm control (there may well be others I have forgotten, but these are the main ones).
I am quite new to orgasm denial, I have only managed to go about 5 or 6 days in the past, but now I feel I am ready to take on my 12 day challenge. If I fail (and I will be very honest if I do fail) I will buy a chastity device and when I go home I will leave the keys behind (I go home once every month) so when I come back to my university accommodation, I will have absolutely zero access to my penis for an entire month).
If you have any questions or any ways you think I could enhance this or any future trials I could put myself through, please leave a comment and I will reply as soon as I see it.
Day 2:
It's being difficult tonight, I normally masturbate once everyday or so, so it is going to be hard to get through these 12 days. I was quite bored so I decided to masturbate but only get to the edge and then let go and let it fade away. I had the idea of edging twice as much everyday (so on the third day I would edge 6 times before going to bed) but I thought that would get too hard. I looked at some of the femdom porn I have which inspired me to keep going and live the way that I want to live in my fantasies.
Day 3:
I am going to bed really late tonight, so I am not as frustrated as I was yesterday because I am to tired to think about anything. Perhaps this method of avoiding the urge to cum will be useful.
Day 4:
It seems as soon as I take my clothes off to go to bed, I get increasingly horny, as soon as I took my clothes off tonight I got a huge erection just thinking about how desperate I am going to be to cum over the next 8 days. I sat down to pee (its hard to pee while standing with an erection, it just goes everywhere) and had to press my penis down to actually get the pee into the bowl. A bit leaked out from between the crack between the toilet seat and the actual bowl and I wanted some kind of sexual release so much that I got down on my knees and licked the pee off of the floor. I have also decided to sleep naked which is something I only seem to do during these orgasm denial sessions (as I said in day 1 I have done orgasm denial challenges before but only for about 5 or 6 days), I don't know why this is. Perhaps its because I want to live in a household dominated by a woman who forces me to be naked 24/7 and this is just my way of living the fantasy out, behind closed doors.
I also thought about sleeping on the floor, with no covers or pillows, completely naked. The thought of this turns me on, but maybe later I will do that. Another thought has been coming across my mind in the morning, which is to simply get out of the shower, dry myself and then open my bedroom curtains while still naked and just see if anyone looks. But I'm not sure I have the courage to do this. There are a lot of students who might see me, because my accommodation's window faces other accommodation windows. Maybe before the 12 days are over, I will be getting my release from doing this sort of thing... There is a strong possibility no one would see me anyway. Maybe I could start by just wearing underwear. In fact what I could do is sit in my underwear at night with my curtains open while I do my work. That way people can openly see me semi naked and it might get me used to the feeling of being exposed.
Anyway, I need to get to bed, so I will say goodnight for today and talk to you
all tomorrow.
Day 5:
I have now brought a chastity device, not because I have failed to go 12 days without cumming, but purely because I want one. Just thinking about being locked up makes me very, very aroused. It will be the first real sex toy I have ever brought, so I suppose its quite a big thing for me.
I am not as horny as I was yesterday for some reason. My balls are getting slightly fatter each day (unless its my imagination making me see and feel this), I wonder how big they will be at the 12th day? I am yet to try my public underwear idea that I had yesterday but maybe in the morning I will do it, It's my day off tomorrow so its not like I need to rush off anywhere in the morning. I have no excuse not to do it.
I am catching myself thinking sexually a lot more during the day, towards a certain classmate and also a certain a flatmate. She had bare feet throughout the night and I kept taking glances at them wishing to be beneath them. I keep having a fantasy where I am forced into getting naked and licking her feet and she records the whole thing secretly and blackmails me with the footage, I then go on to do all of her homework and essays and for everything I get wrong she punishes me and for everything I get right she gives me a treat, but because a treat to me would be giving her a foot massage (or being allowed to worship her pussy, etc) it is really a treat for her either way.
Another thing I have noticed is CBT hurts a lot more when you have been denied a few days, I'm not sure why this is, but by day 12 I'm sure a simple flick will hurt like hell. I really can't wait for my chastity device, it's going to be fun!
