So this is the first "backdated" post. It probably started about 6 weeks ago. I'd been thinking about doing it for a while but kept getting cold feet. I've developed a desire for public humiliation and minor public risk taking. I decided that I would buy cucumber and lube from an attractive young female checkout assistant. I enjoyed the embarrassed, humiliated, nervous, excited feeling it gave me. I threw the items away as soon as I got out of the store, it was all about the humiliation of buying them.