Being an only child, selfishness should have been a typical trait.
Being unwanted since birth will have strange effects on a person as they grow. Trying to earn love, and attention from anyone willing to give it is dangerous. Doing your absolute best to be a 'good girl' only gets you abused in all ways that a pretty little girl can be.
Growing up around military men who scorn weakness and push you to be better constantly is great right?
1 more mile to run, when you are shaking and can barely breath through the pain.
1 more push up, when your arms are jelly and burning.
1 more day of no sleep and doing physical training.
1 more day without food when your so hungry you'd eat Anything.
All before your even a teenager.
Introduce boob's and hormones
(and middle school)
Your 'training' continues but increases to include outdoor survival skills, ground fighting, knives, and range weapons.
Go to school, get picked on by other students, and refuse to fight back. Why? Isnt it obvious? They dont know how or where to punch. The 'fight' is nothing more than a toddler throwing a fit. Block and dodge, its simple.
Abuse gets worse as time goes on.
Introduce pain management skills.
Injuries are a weakness that needs to be hidden or someone will exploit them.
Fight or flight instincts take a turn.
Confidence is a tricky thing. You've been fighting all your life. Fighting for everything. Beaten down and knowing when to fall back, reassess, and reason out everything as quickly as you can is 2nd nature. Until your Confidence gets you in a spot of kill or be killed.
At 12 your whole world gets flip flopped.
Now your supposed to sleep 8hours. No 3am PT sessions.
Now your supposed to play with toys, not throw knives.
Now your supposed to ask for food or drink.
What fresh hell is this nice bull shit. What are these people hiding behind their smiles and *cringe* hugs.
Retraining to be a proper child Sucks.
Unknowingly kink was a thing. Teen aged boys are so much fun to fuck with. They don't know what to do with a girl who can (and did) kick their ass. Not knowing what is and isn't okay to... do with boys, you do what you want, how you want and for the length of time you want. Pain will stop pleasure in most cases.
As you get older, you get the itch. That need for a good, nasty, no holding back fight. The girls around you are weak and timid. The boys around you don't want to hit a girl. Who can you fight with?
no one. as always. alone.
You try to cling to the training you grew up with and yet life happens.
Councilors, psychologists, and preachers shove and pull to correct things.
Now your an adult and go through a bunch of life lessons most people go through earlier in life. You've finally given in to modern living and find out there's a world in which you belong in. Bdsm.
Your skills can be put to use.
Your knowledge isn't useless.
You belong.
Lady Grace
Hope is funny. You can be hopeful, or hopeless. Just don't lose Hope.
Being unwanted since birth will have strange effects on a person as they grow. Trying to earn love, and attention from anyone willing to give it is dangerous. Doing your absolute best to be a 'good girl' only gets you abused in all ways that a pretty little girl can be.
Growing up around military men who scorn weakness and push you to be better constantly is great right?
1 more mile to run, when you are shaking and can barely breath through the pain.
1 more push up, when your arms are jelly and burning.
1 more day of no sleep and doing physical training.
1 more day without food when your so hungry you'd eat Anything.
All before your even a teenager.
Introduce boob's and hormones
(and middle school)
Your 'training' continues but increases to include outdoor survival skills, ground fighting, knives, and range weapons.
Go to school, get picked on by other students, and refuse to fight back. Why? Isnt it obvious? They dont know how or where to punch. The 'fight' is nothing more than a toddler throwing a fit. Block and dodge, its simple.
Abuse gets worse as time goes on.
Introduce pain management skills.
Injuries are a weakness that needs to be hidden or someone will exploit them.
Fight or flight instincts take a turn.
Confidence is a tricky thing. You've been fighting all your life. Fighting for everything. Beaten down and knowing when to fall back, reassess, and reason out everything as quickly as you can is 2nd nature. Until your Confidence gets you in a spot of kill or be killed.
At 12 your whole world gets flip flopped.
Now your supposed to sleep 8hours. No 3am PT sessions.
Now your supposed to play with toys, not throw knives.
Now your supposed to ask for food or drink.
What fresh hell is this nice bull shit. What are these people hiding behind their smiles and *cringe* hugs.
Retraining to be a proper child Sucks.
Unknowingly kink was a thing. Teen aged boys are so much fun to fuck with. They don't know what to do with a girl who can (and did) kick their ass. Not knowing what is and isn't okay to... do with boys, you do what you want, how you want and for the length of time you want. Pain will stop pleasure in most cases.
As you get older, you get the itch. That need for a good, nasty, no holding back fight. The girls around you are weak and timid. The boys around you don't want to hit a girl. Who can you fight with?
no one. as always. alone.
You try to cling to the training you grew up with and yet life happens.
Councilors, psychologists, and preachers shove and pull to correct things.
Now your an adult and go through a bunch of life lessons most people go through earlier in life. You've finally given in to modern living and find out there's a world in which you belong in. Bdsm.
Your skills can be put to use.
Your knowledge isn't useless.
You belong.
Lady GraceHope is funny. You can be hopeful, or hopeless. Just don't lose Hope.
