I've always been a very adventurous person. My motto has always been "I'll try anything once." After all, you can't make an informed decision on anything without experiencing it for yourself. I also find that I can empathize with just about anyone, and with just about anything. I have always had a gift for seeing both sides of an argument and can understand where people are coming from. I guess that's why I feel like I have a very open mind, especially when it comes to matters of pleasure and sexuality. I can understand why a person can take a fetish to the extreme, and I often wish I could find something I was that passionate about.
The point I'm trying to get at here, is that I am more and more intrigued by the lifestyle I've discovered here. This has also presented me with a conundrum. I want to learn more, and in turn experiment more, with these topics but I'm hesitant. The more I search through the forums the more I feel that I might not be a good fit here. As a newcomer to the scene, I find the overwhelming amount of posts very intimidating. I don't know what I thought I would find, but I didn't expect this.
When I made the decision to make an account and actively start combing through the forums, it was because I was searching for something... I felt like my life has been longing for something more. It's one thing to look up BDSM porn and find it arousing, but to realize you have a longing for it is something that I've started to feel. Take me sex life for example, it's always been a bit lacking and relatively uneventful. I started being sexually active fairly late in my adolescents and I kept it pretty mundane. A few years ago I met a woman that I felt like I could be myself with and we were comfortable expressing our desires with each other. It started out very innocently, as our relationship processed we would try to spice things up. One time, when I was giving her oral, I would pull her legs up and started to tease her ass with my wet fingers. Much to my satisfaction she responded well to the stimulants. This lead me to start exploring more of her body with my tongue. After that, our sexual appetites grew and the sex only got better. Next thing I knew, I was getting rough with her breasts and pulling on her hair. After a while, I told her that I'd like it if she was rough with me too. Next thing I knew, I was getting head with a finger in my ass and thinking about getting a set of nipple clamps.
Needless to say, I was on my way to finally understanding myself and finding out what my body craved. This brings me to my present situation... I don't know if there is a place for me here. I don't seem to fit into the demographics that I see online here. There are a lot of extremes being posted, and I don't know where to find something for me. I want to explore myself, but I don't want a painful and/or humiliating relationship. I don't like to wear women's clothes, or be treated like a sissy.
I know that there are a wide range to the types of interactions and relationships, but I don't know how to cut through the extremes. I just want to find a dominate woman who will help me into the submissive lifestyle. I don't mind being a bit of a dom, I liked to pull her hair and make her submissive but I love to please and not hurt. My problem is that I can't find an entry point, I don't know where my place is here. I need a strong woman to teach me, and make me pleasure her. Finding this in an online relationship setting seems difficult too...
The point I'm trying to get at here, is that I am more and more intrigued by the lifestyle I've discovered here. This has also presented me with a conundrum. I want to learn more, and in turn experiment more, with these topics but I'm hesitant. The more I search through the forums the more I feel that I might not be a good fit here. As a newcomer to the scene, I find the overwhelming amount of posts very intimidating. I don't know what I thought I would find, but I didn't expect this.
When I made the decision to make an account and actively start combing through the forums, it was because I was searching for something... I felt like my life has been longing for something more. It's one thing to look up BDSM porn and find it arousing, but to realize you have a longing for it is something that I've started to feel. Take me sex life for example, it's always been a bit lacking and relatively uneventful. I started being sexually active fairly late in my adolescents and I kept it pretty mundane. A few years ago I met a woman that I felt like I could be myself with and we were comfortable expressing our desires with each other. It started out very innocently, as our relationship processed we would try to spice things up. One time, when I was giving her oral, I would pull her legs up and started to tease her ass with my wet fingers. Much to my satisfaction she responded well to the stimulants. This lead me to start exploring more of her body with my tongue. After that, our sexual appetites grew and the sex only got better. Next thing I knew, I was getting rough with her breasts and pulling on her hair. After a while, I told her that I'd like it if she was rough with me too. Next thing I knew, I was getting head with a finger in my ass and thinking about getting a set of nipple clamps.
Needless to say, I was on my way to finally understanding myself and finding out what my body craved. This brings me to my present situation... I don't know if there is a place for me here. I don't seem to fit into the demographics that I see online here. There are a lot of extremes being posted, and I don't know where to find something for me. I want to explore myself, but I don't want a painful and/or humiliating relationship. I don't like to wear women's clothes, or be treated like a sissy.
I know that there are a wide range to the types of interactions and relationships, but I don't know how to cut through the extremes. I just want to find a dominate woman who will help me into the submissive lifestyle. I don't mind being a bit of a dom, I liked to pull her hair and make her submissive but I love to please and not hurt. My problem is that I can't find an entry point, I don't know where my place is here. I need a strong woman to teach me, and make me pleasure her. Finding this in an online relationship setting seems difficult too...
