Then I think you’re safe to just enjoy it and go with it and find a safe legal way to role play it at most.I think i’m more attracted to the position of power that criminals often embody. The idea that your partner is full of hatred and awful desires but still loves you anyway because you're different is also kinda intriguing to me. I like the bittersweet contrast.
And absolutely, most media portrayals definitely glorify and romanticize them, which probably contributes to this attraction.
& i’m not sure how i’d react if it such situation became real life, but realistically, my fascination is probably more about fantasy rather than actual reality lmao