About 4 weeks ago I decided to repeat the shopping trip, but add another twist to it. I bought a cucumber, lube and some sexy knickers. I found browsing through the women's underwear section to be exhilarating but also very nerve wracking. These tasks make me feel sick and my heart races. I threw the cucumber and lube away, took the knickers and spent the evening wearing them and wanking in them before throwing them away.