My opinion only. Your feeling are 100% valid. Acknowledge them but be careful if they guide you a certain way especially if it deals with someone else.
On the topic, Lots of adult film actresses have been doing interviews and the reason I bring that up is both insight and knowledge.
I was just listening to Riley Reid on a podcast talk about the biggest difference between on camera sex vs a relationship sex for her. Give it a listen as there is some pertinent content for content creator (of course at a smaller s ale than what she does). In the end, she enjoys both just a matter of correct (and healthy) relationships on both side (intimate v casual).
Good luck and keep on grinding. The grinding is what will make it successful for you.