Online Exposure

[Sr87]

Online Exposure is my kink/fetish.
in 2005 I was 18 at university and this is where I found exposur! As young horny adult, I would masturbate in my room looking through porn. I stumbled upon an amateur porn site and users were submitting their own nudes. I thought why not so I upload a cock only pic. Seeing my pic posted was a huge turn on and this made me cum within seconds. After testing the water a bit with this site, I got more daring each time. Cock pics, ass pic, full body pic, until it was time to post a full body & face nude. After posting this again I cummed within a few seconds. Even reading the comments made me cum again. After a few weeks and months of post maybe around 10/15 full body nudes the rush & anxiety then hit me. People I know could potentially see me naked. This made me delete my accounts and stop, but after 24/48 hours I felt the need to post again. There I was again posting a number of full nudes with face and after a while I started to make & chat to regular people. This lead to messenger apps where I would chat and send unseen nudes and even webcam with people. This so hot just showing off for people. After 3 years of building a big portfolio of nudes online (300/400 pics), I enter a relationship with a female. I never told her about my fetish off playing online, but I decided to stop. After about a year of not posting I missed the online fun. I made a new profile and I was back posting and playing online again. My gf would come round to my house and spend some naughty time together, but once I dropped her back off home I would then go back online to post my nudes and play. At this point the whole saving nudes and reposting them wasn’t a huge thing so I didn’t think about that fact people were saving my nudes, until I found I google image reverse search. This changed everything. I then uploaded a nude of mine and there it was. A return to say my nudes were on x,y,z sites that I didn’t post on. My nudes were now been spread online out of my control. I then deleted all my accounts in panic. After a while I broke up with my gf and I then still searched my images but they were turning up in more and more places. After a while I decided to start back up again in posting my nudes and I’ve not stopped since. After 19 years I still love the thrill of taking nudes, posting them online, chatting to others and I love the fact they are now been saved & reposted. Knowing my nudes are permanently online is exciting. As the reverse image search function is getting better the inevitable happed. I got recognised and my friends had got wind and seen my nudes. My school friends, my coworkers were all alerted to my nudes. I remember seeing friends messaging me with a link that had around 100 pics of me in various nude poses. I tried to pass it off I was hacked but a female coworker of mine who saw, had seen right through me. She somehow knew I wasn’t hacked and asked me straight up if I make porn. I ended up telling her the truth and that I love to expose myself.

I don’t know what it is but being totally exposed online is a huge turn on for me.

 

[Cstelle]

The online exposure kink is pretty new for me - both in the sense that I haven't been aware of it for many years and in the sense that I've only dipped my toes in it for a couple of years - so I'm very interested to hear what those who do it think about it. So many thanks for this!

(It seems to me that the kink is sort of masturbatory to its nature. It's hard to find anyone talking about their kink. There don't seem to be any very lively groups...)

 

[smallchangexxx23]

I have found that on line forums such as this one are extremely addictive and I started out posting but shying away from pics but as soon as I became bold enough I merrily put out all kinds of pics of myself but never showing my face. Like the original poster in this thread said I too totally got off that anyone on site could see them. Since my identity seemed to be relatively safe even if someone I knew happened to join the forum I wasnt worried about the exposure. My general sex life and individual kinks in the off line world were between myself and those I sexually interacted with.
It may have been known in my closer social circles that I have a tiny penis ( friends and relatives et al do gossip) but only a very few were aware of my sph fetish and to this day that is still only known to some of those who have been directly part of my sexual life or whom I trusted enough to keep my kinky sex secrets. I too panicked a bit after awhile worrying that some of my pics would filter out to the wider world. Even though I never showed my face I realized some people may recognise a couple of rather unique tatoos which are still on my arms. I closed all my accounts and swore I wouldnt take chances like that again. However the lure was too strong especially when I was between relationships and not getting enough casual sex. I have opened and closed numerous accounts ever since. ( usually when I have just entered into a new relationship)
I got over my fears of accidental exposure of any pics I put up by convincing myself that the odds of someone I know being linked to the site I was on and identifying me were low enough to risk it. ( my horny nature helped with that discission because the nature of the sph fetish means the idea of accidental exposure is a huge turn on as well as a fear.
About a decade or so ago however an unfortunate incident occurred when I was exposed to some people I definitely would not wish to be outed to. It was carelessness on my part that was the culprit. I have talked about this incident in another post here to explain the reason I dont put up any pics of myself nor include too much detail ( real names or other too precise identifying things of others I sexually interact with or have something to do with my real life in general. )
Basically I was staying at a sister's house and had used a home computer that was in the room of one of her husband's daughters ( product of a previous marriage) I forgot to log out of the forum I was a member of after being on it in the wee hours and I didnt clear my search history either. Both his daughters ( college age by the way) saw what I was into and saw the pics ( the pics they saw of my tiny penis were cringeworthy enough but the posts et al that they probably perused were absolutely damning. ) They potentially got a very broad look at my secret kinky sex life - all the sph related stuff, cuckolding, etc etc etc. The potential sex kick of accidental exposure was massively more chill than thrill and I have never put up pics since nor ever used any device other than my own to enjoy my on line sex things. Massively tempted many times to break that rule if I didnt have my own tech at hand to use and I got too horny but I learned to just wank the desire away before I gave into it. ( ironically a fantasy scenario I use to wank to is often based on some type of accidental exposure )

 

[Cstelle]

Many people who are into (for instance) online exposure speak of it being like an addiction and seem to be unhappy about it. For me it is still just a silly kink, a game, a sport, and I hope it won't develop into a fetish that brings unhappiness...